Heavy Bloating

After this last bout of sickness, a lot of my muscle tissue has been catabolized(A1AD, genetic disorder from birth), and my abdomen is extremely distended.  It is painful!  Yet this always happens.  The body tries so hard to repair the lungs, that it steals from the muscles to rebuild the lungs, while at the same time, the liver goes into overdrive, trying to produce the antitypsin protease, which of course cannot escape the liver very well, and then causes a great deal of swelling of the liver.  It is quite painful!

This is made worse, if I cannot stay on a proper daily schedule, and eat properly on a strict schedule.

I hate the medicine!  It is so disgusting, and makes me feel so poorly.  There are serious side effects of brain fog, and tiredness, and stomach pain, although the pain is not as bad as when I do not take the medicine.  Really, it is only trading one pain for another.  Some days, I certainly do look forward when this life will end. 

Then other days, I absolutely love life!  I love the great outdoors, I love practicing martial arts, I love my Metis religion and culture.  I do blog from time to time, and love to perform ceremonies for all those who ask!  It is ironic, all the ceremonies I have performed, and I have such difficulty healing myself!  Yet, I am happy to have lived this long!  And I bless the Great Creator and my ancestors for bringing me to this point.  I look forward to seeing them again.  I miss them!

Stinging Lungs

 My lungs have been hurting a lot the last three days.  And today, my muscles are very sore.  This always happens when the body robs the muscles to repair the lungs.  It will take a while to rebuild the muscle lost over these last 3-4 days, but that is what happens when the body catabolizes itself, just to stay alive.  This is just one of the things that happens all our lives, those who live with A1AD.  I need to up my protein intake, and definitely get rid of the carbohydrates.